Paralyzed

Have you ever felt the way I do?

All you do is wait for the day to end 

So you can sleep and start yet another day? 

All you feel is a void and nothing else

The only time you laugh is when watching something funny

Movies and music become your everything

A day without music feels incomplete

A day without a movie feels empty

I know what you're thinking

"It's impossible,"

We need people, we need interaction

We need human affection and touch

We need love, care and bonds

But that is everyone else

          I've seen... I've seen...

Affection turn into power points

Interaction turn into driving forces for bullying

Love turn into hate

Care turn into disregard

Bonds turn into shackles.

I've seen and I don't want that

I don't need that pain

I don't need the sorrows and the worries

I don't need the constant stress

I don't need the half-hearted concerns

I want to feel something too

I crave it, I desire it

But it's all faded

I have the keys to the box I locked myself in

All I have to do is open it

But....

Nothing matters anymore

I'm paralysed.