Just Try It One More time

I was sitting in my room last night thinking I was going to end it all,

Because it seems like every time I get up, all that happens is I continue to fall.

I am trying so hard to take a deep breath and to keep moving on,

But lately I have been feeling like all the hope that I once had is gone.

i every time that I fall apart, I get up and I try it one more time,

Because I can't give up now because I have already made up my mind.

That everything I want, I know I can achieve it if I continue to work hard,

But I have to be willing to let my down guard.

It is hard for me to let people in and see the vulnerable side of me,

But I so badly want to break away from the mold and allow myself to be set free.

And every time I feel like quitting, there is something in my mind that is telling me to give it just one more try,

And I am fine during the day, but every night, I fall apart as I sit there and cry.

It takes a lot of strength to wake up the next day as if nothing ever occurred,

And it hits you all of the pain that you have had to endure. 

No matter what, I need to do it and I refuse to quit,

Because I was always able to bounce back every time that I got hit.

And this time it is different, this is the last time that I am starting over,

Because I make my own luck, and I don't need to find a four leaf clover.