Your Name

I've tried so hard to erase you from my memory, but it's like the universe is playing some sick game,

Because everywhere I look, I keep being reminded of you, and I keep hearing your name.

I so badly want to erase you from my mind,

But I am realizing more and more that guys like you are hard to find.

I can't just put my memories on hold and erase the past three years, 

But part of me also knows I need to let you go because I have shed so many tears.

And I hate to admit it, but almost all of them were tears of sadness and never tears of joy,

And it kills me to admit, that all of these tears were always over the same boy.

Why is it that every time I try to let you go, the universe keeps on bringing you back,

Does the universe want us together, or is there a strength in me that I lack?

The strength to let every bit of you go so I can allow someone new to enter,

But I can't, because in everything I do, you are always at the center.

You are at the center of my mind, in everything that I do and everything that I say,

And it breaks my heart a little more each and every day.

Even when I am at work, I still remember the conversations that we had and the places where we used to sit,

Because it felt like the puzzle was starting to complete, and you were the perfect fit.

But it looks so different there now, and some of the places we used to sit are no longer there,

But I can still picture you sitting there, and I stand there and I stare.

And think about how happy I was the day you walked in,

And I can't help but long to go back to the ways things once had been.

And every time I feel like I am one step closer to letting you go, you somehow come back again,

And I want you back in my life, and I want you more than a friend.

Just like clockwork, every time I am ready to let you go, I hear you name one more time,

And it reminded me that at one point, you were the perfect one that I was trying to find.

I so badly want to let you go, but I will always have a piece of you in my heart,

And I hate to admit it, but you fill up each and every part.