Waiting Forever

Something I heard once

“Stars can't shine without darkness”

So this dark period of my life

Will hopefully lead to me shining brighter than the sun

After I get out of this rut

But this rut is also a mountain

That I want to run to the top of

And scream to the heavens and the stars

About how deep my love is for you

Or run through fields screaming your name

What if we did exist though?

I'd drag you to the tops of those mountains

And through those fields

Loving every second of that experience

I wish I could tell you that I like you

Or at least that I'm queer

But it'll take a while for you to get used to that knowledge

Which will make it awkward between us

Which would kill me even more

And I'd need to wait for a good time to tell you,

For the right time to tell you

But waiting for the right time

Would mean waiting forever