Loves lost wars

My heart is being broken,
but maybe it was always so,
maybe it just shattered,
a really, really long time ago

And there is hardly a way,
to piece the puzzle together,
But sometimes I feel like...
The time is now or never

To say it is deeply troubled
As the question of future gets in a way
Is there really any for us?
Is this the way things will stay?

Because I just feel the black clouds comming
And me scream into the void
Frozen in time or drowning
Spinning in an endless elipsoid

And the things is
I don't know how
To escape my own heart...
I promise you, I've tried....

To put it behind the bars
To not feel anything at all
To not fight loves lost wars
Not ever, anymore