Ignorance

I sometimes wonder If God does exist or if ignorance really is bliss.

Will I be reunited with my loved ones at heavens gate or will I be burning in a fire with no escape.

Will I be reincarnated as somebody clean and new or will I simply become food.

These are the questions that haunt me as I fall asleep.

I can’t be the only one with this anxiety. When faced with oblivion and the certainty  of death I fear being alone and emptiness. 

I fear there will be no reason or purpose behind all of this and it will simply be darkness. 

however if God does exist, I fear that he will have forsaken me and question my faith as no matter how hard I try I just wasn’t build that way. 

So before I fall sleep tonight  I will pray to who ever might hear. I will pray to which ever god is near. 

That when I should close my eyes and never wake my soul will be theirs to take.