Half a dozen plus years ago the following became a near reality

Countdown to homelessness –
mars this earthlinked sole Harris - son
panhandler would would register

pyrrhic victory won.

10…9…8…3..2..1…

Found me linkedin at the end of my wits
mein kampf and hard times

playing on big screen at the Ritz
vamoose oft times motivations quits
for -- no money iz the pits
without any rich Uncle (Sam) in my orbitz
to ease worse case scenario than bing covered

head to toe with nits
if...offered residence among...

hive feel stung as beelzebub doth buzzfeed,

after being espied,

targeted in the crosshairs

of excellent marksman -

credo, ethos, and holistic lifestyle - a mitts
fa this contemplative, furtive,

and intuitive chap lits
of luminous joie de vivre

will emanate like bland kits
and biting the bullet
no less tasty than true grits,
the latter touted by Euell Gibbons
of bias, discrimination, fuhgeddaboudit
suddenly resplendent with blinding blitz

warp and whoop of bits.

Medium of spoken or written word

avast milieu this wordsmith doth assay,
the aim of said missive constitutes

avoiding living in cardboard box or bidet
house zing debacle looms approximately

soffit teen eaves from this day
if scant success, this atypical, ideal

and zeal - lot might post himself on eBay
or mebbe get swooped up

by 10,000 cannibals and turned into a fillet
which mish mashed matted mush

will resemble fifty shades of gray.

Words above and below

written June thirtieth,

two thousand seventeen indicates,
when rental lease

will find our psyches fillet
so this buster brown
(actually Eastern European Semitic caucasian)
hooped to stave then

turning fifty plus eighteen shades of gray
weigh past time of life

 

to gather rose buds – boot hay
touted as AARP candidate

my inner child doth inlay,
I approach outer limits

per twilight zone of this blue jay
youthful looking married male -

with doe eyed wife does not buck,

donnybrook and neigh
against mortality reckons,

a safe and secure domicile

important basic needs

(codified by Abraham Maslow) – okay
this LVIII year young chap

haint expect tin tubby be housed
in courtly Highland manor,

yet anxiety sans poverty will play
a cruel hoax ruse trick finding me

to jump off a bridge –
with pier - sing quay
King Crimson ready

 

to bring cessation of existence –

when nada stinging ray
of salvation pleasantly doth sashay
and bring relief before

unwelcome ominous killer fate
inches closer incrementally from today
this father of deux darling

then near grown daughters
might fare better brexit - ting America

high tailing dreams to Uruguay.

Nary a snowball chance in hell

this alter kaker will nab employment
since receiving social security

emotional disability for countless years
(viz anxiety, dysthymia,

obsessive compulsive disorder, and prone
to become emotionally panicky

and paralyzed in social situations)
relies on medications,

which palliative doth alleviate, calm, and endow
relief (from debilitating, harrowing,

and lacerating quality of being alive.

 

LIST OF PRESCRIPTION MEDICATIONS THEN TAKEN:

1. Clonazepam 0.5 MG Tablets;
(generic - Klonopin); (1 tablet 3x daily).

2. Floxetine Hcl 40 MG CAPS; (Generic - Prozac).
3. Prazosin 1 MG capsule - 1 capsule nightly.

4. Quetiapine Fumarate; (generic - Seroquel) -
50 MG; (2 tablets 2x daily).

5. not a misprint – a higher dosage,
this pop pops prior to bedtime.
Quetiapine Fumarate; (Generic - Seroquel);
100 MG; (1 tablet at bedtime).

Sought an affordable place
against the sands of time

thyself and spouse race
already envisioning an outlook

that doth harken to trace
living non social on bleak street -

forever reaching for salvation

like Samuel Coleridge Taylor,

his rime of the ancient mariner
or John Keats lovers for’ ever glazed

asper ode on a Grecian (formula) vase.

 

Mine status begs turing

vibrant with near blinding light

could inform this bloke

if any long term living accommodations

ever available, or perhaps

if no can do versus tae kwon do might

be privy to share information about

any eco-friendly community

to forestall any unpleasant plight

specifically being pitched out

on the streets with thee spouse

onto the bleak cobblestone streets

of the urban jungle, where right

iz determined by spittle and spite

and valuables must be clutched tight.

OCCUPATION:

I receive social security disability

for re: max him mum,
long and fostered, during the latter half

of the Fox and Roach pelted per
pesky pointedly nineteen hundred

and fifty nine

ever since my conception in utero -
likened to a luke warm Caldwell,

and the entire century 21.

STATE: protracted, anxiety
COUNTRY: United States