Mother

I know I have been a challenge.

A test for you maybe, 

But you’ve stayed with me through it all.

 

Seeing you sad and alone makes my heart ache. 

Im sorry I’ve had to leave you behind,

I had no intention of hurting you. 

 

My life was wasted in our town,

My happy childhood washed away by others evil.

I know you tried your best to keep me from,

I am sorry it catches up.

 

My  time here was ticking by the time I set foot in that school.

They drained me of joy and left behind a child without will.

Knowing you had to see this hurts unbearably. 

 

I hope you know it wasn’t your fault,

You couldn’t have know what lingered in that school,

What was killing your little girl.

Clawing at my future.

 

I love you with all my heart, 

I know I never showed.

I wish I could have been better,

Please forgive me. 

 

I will always know you did all you could,

Gave all you had,

To make me happy, 

To give me perspective. 

 

I do see it, 

I know its too late,

Mother I know.