I am not safe in school.

School. I am supposed to be safe in school. School. I walk to school. School. I carry a can of hairspray in my backpack. School. It's not for my hair. School. Hairspray works well as pepper spray. School. Is my backpack thick enough? School. Could it protect me from a bullet? School. My teacher says I can't have my phone in class. I have to leave it in my locker. School. That makes me anxious. School. What if I can't say goodbye to my parents? What if I die and I can't say goodbye? School. I used to love school. School. But now everytime I go I'm taking a gamble whith my life. School. I love you mom, I love you dad. School. That could be the last time they hear that. School. Mom, I might not come home from school today. School. I might be dead. School. When I enter a new class I expect the room. School. Where would I hide? School. What would I defend myself whith? School. I might die today. School. Over the loudspeaker it is announced that we are in lockdown. School. Is this a drill? School. The teacher looks worried. School. This is not a drill. School. I hear a scream. School. Then a loud boom. School. It's a gun. School. My backpack isn't thick enough. School. Is this the end? School. I should have stayed home today. School. All of my friends are dead. School. I'm covered in blood. School. Is it mine? I can't tell. There is so much blood. School. I start to feel dizzy. ….. School. Only 20 survivors. School. I am not one of them. School. I'm supposed to be safe in school. School. I am not safe in school.