What love is

I never understood how people could stay with someone who hurt them time and time again,

And I so badly wish we could go back to how things were back then.

I don't understand what happened and where things went so wrong,

And why I have been holding on for so long.

And I realized it's because I love you, 

And I have come to terms with the fact that there is nothing else for me to do.

Part of me wishes I could go back in time and never talk to you from the start,

Because now I understand the kind of impact that you have left on my heart.

And it is one that I wish I could go back and erase, because most of the time it is something I don't want to see,

Because now I see how little I meant to you, when you meant everything to me.

And as much as I hate to admit it, there is a part of me that wants to go back in time for a different reason,

Because I would love to go back and revisit all of those happier seasons.

When I got excited to talk to you everyday, and it felt like you felt the same way,

And I was so excited to get up and start to live my life each day.

Because I had you as something to look forward to,

And it felt like, in the end, it was going to be me and you.

But now I look back at those memories and cry,

Because right now, all that I have going for us, it that we are under the same sky.

But I know that you have ruined my life,

Because I was confiding in you, while you were the one standing there and holding the knife.  

I felt like for the first time I had found someone who I was going to end up with in the end,

But now I just wish that I had never even hit send.

I wish I had just left it as two people who used to work together and never tried to continue our tale,

Because all it has ended up being is a fail.

You ruined me ever finding someone else, 

Because I will never be able to put the love I have for you on a shelf.

There is only room in my heart for one person to love, and that will always be you,

But I know that there is nothing else left for me to do.

That I have so many unanswered questions, that I know I will never get an answer to,

Because this is the end of me and you.

And I leave you with every piece of me and my heart broken on the floor,

And it hurts, knowing that I need to find a way to move on and shut that door.