conversation with my inner child

hey... if ur still in there i just wanted to say im sorry u didnt deserve to be hurt like that

 

sorry doesnt take back the pain

 

ik... if i could put the tears back in ur eyes i would i wish i could go back and undo all the pain and suffering

 

y did u lock me away behind the fake smile u put on i was screaming every day to be let out

 

im sorry i thought i was helping nobody could except u i just wanted us to fit in

 

helping? is that what ur calling it

 

what would u call it? 

 

hiding

 

how was it hiding?

 

how was it hiding? u were hiding the real u to be a version of u that didnt exist so u could fit in

 

yh ig it was hiding

 

yh well thanks to u im just a memory nobody out there remembers me

 

did u want them to hurt u if i didnt do it they would have kept hurting u

 

i never said i wanted them to hurt me

 

yes u r they were hurting u and i stopped them and u call it hiding im sorry ur just a memory now but i had to do it

 

ik u were trying to help but u took it too far

 

no i did what i had to do the world was breaking u and i protected u thats what im tryna say but u just wont listen

 

were both broken they smashed both of our hearts

 

i dont give a damn if they break my heart

 

u dont wanna be urself?

 

i had to free myself they wouldnt stop hurting me

 

get help instead of just hiding it or they will never stop

 

dont u think im tired of hiding it

 

i dont care if u r maybe if u get tired of hiding it u will be urself again