Get a job

You useless fuck, get a job, whats your problem? 

I’m trying, I think, but I feel out of options

It’s all in your head! Be a man, play your position! 

I sit unmoving, heart valves pounding like pistons

No one respects you, you’re fat and you’re useless! 

I wish I was you, so cunning, so ruthless 

This voice in my head which keeps tearing me down 

I try to stand up but there’s no solid ground

I tumble and twirl, no sense and no meaning 

Just hatred and anger, turned inward, demeaning