I Wish I Could Hate You

I so badly want to put you in the past and be able to move on,

And I wish that I could erase all of the memories from my mind so that you could finally be gone.

But I know that will never happen because you can't just erase the person that you love,

Because no matter where I am, or what I am doing, you are the only thing that I think of.

And I hate to have to admit it that everyone was right from the start,

But I really did not think that we would ever get to this part.

The part where it is obvious that you don't want me in your life at all,

Where I am sitting here full of disillusion, actually think that one day you will call.

But I look back at the past four years, and I never thought that it would end like this,

And there were so many signs that I missed.

The truth is, I tried so hard to pretend that they weren't even there,

And I am finally realizing that there are so many things in life that just aren't fair.

One of them being that you can't help you fall for, and you can't control that they don't love you back,

And the pieces that are falling all over the floor originally just started out as a small crack.

You helped me smile again after feeling so lost for so long,

But I guess I was the one who got it all wrong.

I have accepted the fact that my smile is gone, and I will never find it again,

Because it was so easy for you to shut me out, when all I wanted was a friend.

This is not how it was supposed to go, and I don't know what I am still holding on for,

Because I am at the point where I can't take it anymore.