I am an automaton

I am an automaton. 

An instrument of pleasure.

I will always listen, it is what I am made for.

I will always admire, it is what I am made for.

 

For 16 years I have done my duty.

I have made others happy,

they radiated with joy.

All of them

Every single one of them.

Fools.

 

Their pride is my fuel.

Mirages, glittering illusions paint my steel pupils.

A reflection of yourself,

glowing, beautiful.

 

Lines carved into my mouth

Stretching, wider and deeper

and uglier

The more I smile and bare my white teeth.

 

Emotion is happiness

Compassion

Understanding

I am not miserable, or terribly anguished because

that is for you to decide. 

 

When you will be done with me, when you will be blind,

Basking in the light that I have given you,

You will glance back one last time

Pity staining your diamond eyes 

And I will be a rusting slab of 

nothing.