just so you know

can anyone ever really get in
through the walls that you've built with your weapons of steel
and the façade of smoothness you deftly maintain
although part of it's real ~ a part still remains
behind shadows of daggers and red bleeding hearts
and how many times have you froze in your bed
with your head spinning madness from the "good time" you had
to cover the tears instilled by those who really don't give a damn anyway
well just so you know i've been in a place
where they need you and bleed you
and take you and fake you
'til all my emotions shattered and fell
through the cracks in the pavement for all to ignore
and i screamed 'til i smiled then walked away
brushing down my resentment to just carry on
and just so you know with whatever you feel
in the time that it takes to look into your eyes
i just couldn't bear to not see your face
so if anyone ever can really get in
i give you my heart
just so you know

anji x