Who Knew/This Cruel

I wish I could rid myself of these memories -

These memories of you

I wish we had a happy ending to our story

Who knew the world could be so cruel?

It feels like there's an empty hole in my chest

Where only my broken heart resides

And it's so painful that I have to take a pill to rest

Who knew someone could feel so alone and confined?

The void in my chest has a longing for you

And grows bigger whenever I hear your name

Grows bigger when I hear our song so soon

But I especially go insane

When I see you hug and caress someone

The loving way you used to do to me

The way you look at them, so fond

Has got me wishing for a nepenthe

All I do now is cry on the bathroom floor

And stare at my broken reflections

As I think back at all the times you said "I love you"

Or look back at our millions of happy conversations

Because you really did make me happy

Made me feel whole, content

Now I just feel broken with contempt

Who knew life was so crappy?

Now you're cold and distant

It feels like it all changed in an instant

The shadows that again start to torment

The rain that pours down in a torrent - 

A torrent that tastes less salty than my tears

A torrent less scary than my inane fears

Who knew

I would be left here drowning - 

Left here consumed by the hole that you - 

That you made

And I swear one day I will lose it

That I will explode like a million fuses

Who knew 

That the world - no, that you

Could be so cruel.