Born of Chaos

What if you were born to fuck things up?
You know, really fuck things up!
Whether anyone acknowledges it or not,
it is very much the truth.

The illegitimate son of a minister,
who never even met his dad.
Born to a schizophrenic mother,
who stayed eternally mad.

Well, I'd say that's pretty fucked up!
And so I was for a very long time.
Looking back, that fear is now gone,
fear of being known as something wrong.

And wrong have I forever been -
just a byproduct of unholy sin,
a mockery of those who say, "Amen!",
and that's just where it begins.

It creates a certain kind of mind,
with hope that you will one day find
a reason, a reason for being
somewhat unaligned with the rest of mankind.

And don't think that they don't know.
They've certainly let me know how low I've been.
That is one thing that has been certain
in a world of sin, upon sin - over, and over again.

So, I just walk into the room,
and sometimes that is all that it takes
to call out the fakes, and change the stakes -
cause the aligned to put on the brakes, take a new take.

They just can't understand what drives the unaligned man
to be who he is, to do what he does,
to think what he thinks under the sun,
in a world that never cared or loved.

That makes the path just a little bit different.
When you adjust to the realm of the unjust,
and see the rusty state of it all, and know
the fated fall will come, not just for the one, but for all.

Here, let me, who is free from collective fear
take the wheel and steer us down a path
empty of a world most aligned ones would find so very dear.

And that's where you lose them.
They just can't fathom your world.  That is when you find that you've
been hurled into a role you never thought you would play.
So there it is, another day - refusing to obey, as they say.

Normality for a sigma may not be normal at all,
but as I said earlier, we all must verily fall.
So when I walk into a room,
I will simply take my chances, do it the way I must do,
freestyle everything that can be done before the unknown, before freefall
.