FOR YOU

It's been 8 years,

the first time I saw you,

I didn't have the slightest hint,

that you would be my life and soul in a few years.

Sticking through thick and thin,

I remember it like it was yesterday,

had a hard time getting along,

polar opposites,

as opposite as fire and ice,

but still managed to co-exist alongside each other,

without hurting each other,

holding each other's back.

We had ups and downs,

both in our lives and within ourselves,

we fought,

we cried,

we laughed,

we hugged,

we smiled,

we sailed far far away and explored the depths of love and friendship.

I've hurt you,

you've hurt me,

I've made you sad,

you've made me sad,

but there's no denial that,

you're the shining light of my life.

It'll be hard to be without you,

I can't fly when you're down,

you light up my night sky,

fire up my passion,

push me to keep moving,

ask me to stay happy.

It's funny, how I feel so strong and confident,

when you're by my side,

even if the world's against me, 

when you're by my side, that's enough.

You tell me you know me the best,

and indeed, that's true. 

We communicate with a look,

surprised by our telepathic connection.

I don't regret any of it,

because the short time I had with you,

is the only time I could truly be myself.

I didn't realize how much you meant to me until you were leaving,

like how we don't miss the sun until it's winter.

Friday nights,

walking days,

school times,

all those times we laughed our hearts and cried our eyes out,

memories I hold close to my heart.

We were inseparable,

there've been times we couldn't stop talking,

and times we didn't know what to talk about,

the utter silence,

that was simply comfortable,

just finding solace in each other's company.

There've been times I felt envious,

feelings that I was ashamed of,

but all those bad days passed away too.

And now that you're leaving for real,

a part of me that's selfish wants to beg you to stay,

while a part of me that's stronger,

asks me to pat your back,

push you to chase your dreams.

I'm not going to cry,

but I'll, if you do.

I'll be a good friend,

I won't hold you back,

from doing what you've always wanted.

I'll only keep rooting for you,

from afar.

I'll console myself,

we're looking up at the same sky at least....

I'll keep dreaming of the day,

when we're both old and grey, 

when we can't walk as fast as we can now,

we'll sit side by side,

talking and laughing,

about our good old days.

In the end,

I only wished with all my heart,

for you to remain happy,

you deserve it,

live your life to its fullest!

And until next time we meet,

remember, I love you,

I'll hold your back no matter what,

and be there for you.