To Whom It May Concern PT. 2 For You

I come home

There's puke on the floor

Cat piss by the table
You chose to ignore

Food scraps strewn about the table

I come home
I clean up your mess
What would you do without that?
What could I do without that?

You're still there
You're still hiding
I always find you like this
It's like you're stuck like this

It's never easy with you
It's always empty with you

You won't admit you're lonely
You won't admit you're depressed
Because you chose to stay here
Because you chose to do nothing

It would take to much effort to
Try things
Go outside
Blinding shades keep you in the dark

But one of us is raising the other
Switched roles to soon
After permanent affliction to a cushion
Placated by a pair of screens

I think maybe you need me
More then you want to admit
You still want to think your independent
Thing is
I think we're both co-dependent
I'm only just noticing it

When I think of leaving
Guilt fills my head
Doubts
Because I fear if I leave
You'd die
So what should I
Do?

We snap at each other
So easy
Bicker and fight
Because maybe we need that too

Somehow you're so distant
Despite being so close

I can not reason with you
You gave up years ago
But, what I wouldn't do for you

Maybe you need me

Maybe you need me

We drive each other nuts
Crazy is right next door
We save it under bed
Like leftovers

Hold on to bullshit
Both vindictive bitches
Heat it up
Remind each other

Trapped and caged like animals
I always come back
There's no use arguing
Someone who can never be wrong

So many times
I wanna run away from this
But invisible strings pull me back
Keep me here
Is it fear?
I can't leave
What is that?

We're both adults now
But you still see me as a child
At your beckon call
At your disposal
No refusal
Unless I want another fight
Rent's free, right?
That makes me a servant
How observant...

We're both adults
That means I can play mind games too
Hell, I got it from you
You scream n shout
Till you bring the demon out

Lie after lie after lie
You tell yourself
You tell me
Because the truth is on fire
To hot to touch
It's better to ignore

This is fine

Mother roles switched
Before I even got the chance to
Rethink things
See things any other way

I love you
But I don't like you
How is that?

I keep thinkin you'll change your mind
I keep thinkin you'll realize
But you've stayed in the dark so long you're
Blind

This is fine

I can never turn my back on you
You'd stab me in it
Then say the knife slipped
Fell

Manipulative tears
You weaponize
Fears
Say it's worry

Ties are hard to cut
Like scissors to the gut
I'm in a rut
I need out!

But I haven't got the heart

Maybe you need me
More then you can say
I always find you like this

What I
Wouldn't
Do
For
You