Emotional Homicide

Was i scared?
honestly, 
No, cause I knew you never cared.
Why are you even still here?
Haven't you done enough damage?
I question the things you did.
And ask why;
In the back of my mind,
I died,
And neither of us cried.
Not even a single tear.
And i'm sick and tied of my emotions being torn into shreds,
Not wanting to get out of my own bed.
To you i'm not good enough.
To you, i'm not smart enough.
To you, i'm not worthy enough.
Always making me feel like my life is a waste.
Sometimes, 
In the back of my mind I think about killing you.
I wouldn't even regret it. 
Yeah, I've finally said it. 
I can't believe I said it. 
But it's true.
I hate you.
Not only for saying,
I'm not good enough.
Not only for saying i'm not smart enough.
Not only for saying i'm not worthy enough.
Oh no I hate you for saying,
My life is a waste.
Then trying to take it away.
I hate you for telling me I don't deserve to be happy.
And trying to take it away.
I hate you for telling me that i'm just better off dead.
Sometimes i would believe the things you told me.
Maybe i am worthless.
Maybe i am a bad person.
And shit maybe I am better off dead.
But that's where you're wrong.
I'm going to put up a fight if i have to. 
I can't stay in bed all day.
I can't keep letting you take control of me. 
So instead i'm taking control.
i have a free will.
I have the chance to decide my future.
And how i want it to unfold.
it's time i change the perspective of things between us.
For that being said,
I sentence you to life in prison for Emotional Homicide.