Alcholism

Sipping on this alcohol 

I am anxious and liberated with my decision 

Feeling on top of the world however self conspicuously SMALL 

I guess I should not be surprised, I been through this if not once a hundred thousand times 

Is this consumption making me feel less lonely or just giving me the strength to grin and bear it 

I have been through A.A., I have recovered and relapsed. 

I have spent years knocked down and other times got right back on track. 

If I were you I would, If I were me I would too 

The fact is I am different from the rest of you, 

Oh, shit there I go alienating myself and making the usual excuse 

Of course, we are all different, I do not have to be stupid, there is a purpose for me I can stop being useless. 

So, go ahead and drink up Mike you are tough, 

You do not have to feel bad; hell, just say fuck it and do not tell a soul, but will they notice when they see me, with that usual look painted on my face showing the misery.