Descent

I loved you in my own eccentric way…
Somehow knowing when it started it would end badly
Too much take from you and no give
You pushed me too hard
You lied too many times
And, I couldn’t love you any more
I just couldn’t....

You were sick, I was scared.
And, a promise was made to keep you safe.
My life stopped while yours inverted 
As you sunk deeper in the damn dementia depression
That black hole that sucks the memories dry
That ripped away your brilliant mind
And replaced it with nothing…
Nothing but innocent emptiness

Watching helplessly while you descended those stairs
Not knowing who you were
  Not knowing why you were there
    Not able to speak my name 
      Not able to speak at all
And, me, still not able to love you back
But a promise was made to keep you safe

The vigil was on and I stayed to the end
When no breath was left
And they took you away
And my heart was confused
Still not able to love you like before
But a promise was made
  And a promise was kept
    You were finally safe now.