this title is supposed to distract you

I will survive

And when I do

I will screw you over

HA!

Funny I said it like that.

You already screwed yourself over

But this time, I will speak

You will have NO future 

Because you took my past and present

You will have NO chance

Because you ruined my childhood

Mom, dad, you proud of me?

I said "no" finally.

After all these years,

Michael Ryan Pack,

What you did to me was not okay.

It's sick that you think it is.

That you try to get away with no consequenses.

You never cared, you never said sorry,

I was just a toy to you.

Because I was little, and quiet.

Do NOT touch me or anyone else.

Ryan you have no place in my life,

You freaking took over you prick,

Gave me mental disorders.

Thanks a lot.  Wow..

Some person you are.

How can your own mother look at you the same?

How can our grandma look at us the same?

I've lost so much blood over you

Maybe I wish we weren't related

You molested me you sick motherf*cker.

And when I tell, I'll be strong so nobody has a choice but to listen.

You don't realize what you've done.

I get flashbacks, I can't focus.

It's more than that, the constant will to die.

I've tried to kill myself three times.

You proud now?

Are you happy for what you did?

I'm trying to heal from this hellish pain

But you.

YOU could move on

How can you sleep at night knowing you sexually abused a little child?

It's an honest question.

My mom loved you more than me.

For the longest time.

She showed you mercy and blamed me.

Grandma too, gosh stop hating on my family.

It's not my fault you're sick it's not my fault you're a b*tch.

IT'S NOT MY F*CKING FAULT YOU USED ME

Yet I pay the price.

Every single day.

YOU made me feel like a crime scene.

My body feels like a crime scene.

So I'll make yours into a crime scene.