Maybe Tomorrow

my heart aches
so many mistakes
so many regrets
yet so many new offerings
waking up each day is a gift
why can’t I accept it
why am I still sad
someone reply, please
why am I here?
did I ask for this?
checking out isn’t the answer
but what is?
why can’t I learn to be happy
just happy
I keep digging
I keep searching
it’s no one’s fault but mine
maybe tomorrow
maybe tomorrow I’ll know