Double Penetration

I see your problems,

I see your pain.

My awareness

doesn't make me feel less

isn't it a shame?

I really want you to feel good

but I can't say it now.

You keep fucking with me,

because I allow.

But really know I should

not let it happen just to please,

your goddamn insecurities. 

"She is overreacting",

I hear you saying

this under a pretentious face of empathy.

As I lay in sections of uncontroled emotions

in my own brain chemistry. 

Opening up and spitting you out.

A poisonous mixture

is getting me high,

removing the doubt 

just for a while.

Making me drown in my blood.

Broken bridges material in the flood.

Broken bitch is covered by your mud. 

Don't want to be a burden,

want to be clean,

for anyone

so I leave.