I Still Want You

I have tried so hard to let you go,

Because no one has ever left me feeling so low.

And I shouldn't still care about someone who could not care less about me,

But ever night,  I still dream of all of the things that we could be.

Because you are always on my mind,

And you take up all of my time.

I am driving myself crazy still believing in the power of me and you,

But I know that you will never look at me that way because you found someone new.

And the last time we talked, I didn't know that it would end it all,

Because I thought eventually you would have to fall.

That if i stayed in your life long enough, it would end up being me and you in the end,

But all that happened, was I ended up losing a lover, and I lost a friend.

And I check on that message everyday to see if you opened it yet,

But now I am just sitting here wishing me and you had never met,

Because someone like you is too damn hard to forget.

She was able to get from you what I had been trying to get for years,

And with that, it confirmed all of my tears and every one of my fears.

That I wasted all of this time thinking that I was good enough,

Which is why the past few years have been so rough.

Because I sat here praying and hoping for everything to change,

But deep down, I knew that this whole this was strange.

Working so hard to make someone fall in love with me,

But that is not how it is supposed to be.

And you ruined every piece of me,

And I don't think that I will ever actually be free.

Because you put me back together when I was broken, and helped me to regain my light,

But you took it away pretty quickly, and now you are the reason that I fall part again at night.

And with everyday that you ignore me, I know it will get easier for us to not talk,

But right now it is difficult because my heart is on lock.

And you are the only one who holds the key,

And I know that I am still going to be waiting for the day for you to try and talk to me.

But I need to remind myself that you are not the boy who I used to know,

The one who I never thought I would be able to let go.

But you thought you couldn't tell me the truth, after knowing you for so long,

And it made me realize that the opinions I had of you may have been wrong.

You lied to me and you ignored me when I kept trying to be there for you,

And if only you were able to be there for me too.

But instead, you ignored me, and left my heart falling apart,

Because this was not how I thought it would end, when I met you at the start.