New Year, New Me

I am someone who doesn't usually believe in making new year's resolutions,

Because trying to change your life just because the clock turned does not seem like a plausible solution.

It seems like we all try to start fresh in the beginning, but that usually leads us to fail,

And as we have done this for many years, it leaves us feeling frail.

Like we can't do anything right because we can't stick to something for more than one day,

And it seems like this is just a pattern, and that it is always going to end up being this way.

And that is why I never really believed in the "New Year, New Me,"

Because it is not a solution for helping you to become everything that you want to be.

But this time it feels different than it has before,

Because it feels so good to finally leave 2023 behind and shut the door.

After the year that I have had, I am ready to move on,

And this year I am going to say "checkmate", and no longer be playing as the pawn.

It got so bad, that I didn't think there was a way that I would be able to make it through,

Because I thought that I was going to be stuck there forever, and I really believed it to be true.

But after the 365 days of hell that never seemed to end, I can say that I made it,

Even though there were so many times that I wanted to quit.

And this year, I am going into it with the mindset that no one and nothing is going to stop me,

And this is the year where I break through the cage and finally allow myself to be free.

It already feels like it is off to a better start than the ones in the past,

And I know that there is a chance that this feeling won't last.

But it doesn't matter, because I am going to do it no matter how I feel,

Because I am going to make sure that all of my dreams, goals, and wishes become real.

I am promising myself that 2024 is going to be my year,

And it will no longer be filled with doubt, hatred, jealousy and fear.