Mixed emotions...

LANDA,

Its been a while since i saw your smile..

Even longer since i heard your voice..

Theres so much you have missed....

The seasons come and go....

The Time changes....

Nothing stays the same...

The tears still flow.....

I still scream your name....

As i taste my tears....

Im Wishing i could feel you near...

With your arms open wide....

Im still here needing you by my side...

It doesnt get any easier.....

Its day by day....

Trying to accept you just couldnt stay....

So many reasons unknown......

I just cant and will never understand....

I try to cope everyday....

Some easier than others...

But never day your not with me...

If only you would let me see...

What its like above....

If i could know what you feel....

If i could get one last talk....

One last walk...

Hand in hand....

Knowing your able to stand tall...

Against it all...

I need to know that you see us try to be strong..

Even if it doesnt last long....

Try to keep it together...

But the hurt seems to last forever...

When will it subside?...

When will the tears stop flowing...

When will the sun start showing?...

When will i wake up....

Still doesnt seem real....

I just want to be numb and not feel..

Nobody comes close to what we had...

Im still here alone sad and mad....

But you were a fighter you gave all you had....

Sometimes when I'm feeling pissed and I question God why.....

I get a little closure knowing that you fought until you took your last breath...

That you gave it all until there was nothing left...

I will never forgive the man who took you from us...

Even though I know forgiving...

To get into Heaven as a must....

But than again In god we trust???....

I will never accept or understand!..

You will forever be my right hand man...

I LOVE YOU!!!