Why is love like this?

Boys here and there
They are everywhere
They all like me and I don't know why
Sometimes they tell me they would die
For me so why is love like this
This crazy this insane
They say they played me
So if I break up with them
They say I'm crazy
And apologized for what they did

Boys claim their hearts are true and kind,
Yet leave a trail of hurt behind.
They say they love, they say they care,
But when I need them, they're not there.
In this game of love, I'm lost,
Wondering what true love will cost.
Their words are sweet, their promises fake,
Leaving me wondering, for my own sake,
Why is love a riddle, a perplexing maze,
Leaving my heart in a bewildered haze?

But when I turn away
They beg me to stay
Why is love like this
I like one- two people
But they act as if I don't exist
They always come back crying saying they're sorry
But are they or is this a joke to them
Love is not a joke
And dear boys I hope you find that out.

Their promises, like shadows, fade in the light,
Leaving me alone to face the night.
In their eyes, I search for a sign,
For something real, genuinely mine.
But as the dawn breaks, clear and cold,
I find myself growing bold.
For love is more than their games and jest,
And in finding myself, I'll find the best.

In not only myself
but in one particular boy
When the time comes I'll find that love
And know he doesn't break it
Or try to make it
About himself