This Type of Pressure

You don't know what it's like to deal with this type of pressure
Only a selected few deal with this type of pressure
And only a few of those few actually survive this type of pressure
So don't say that you understand
Unless you are actually dealing with this type of pressure
At times it is just so unbearable
That you just want to end it
So please don't say that you understand it
Cuz I promise you
You don't know what it's like to constantly deal with this type of pressure 

I've been dealing with the pressure
Of depression
These thoughts might give me a concussion
They're so deadly they need to come with a precaution
Gotta hit them outta my mind like percussion
Gotta shoot them outta my mind like assassin
These thoughts are the main source of my aggression
It's really hard to function
When all these thoughts are in motion
I swear I'm showing no emotion
When I strike up a conversation
I ain't doing this for the payment
Or the gaining
I'm just doing it to paint my pain on paintings
In my mind there is always an explosion
So much commotion
In my head
These voices just wanting me dead
During the middle of conversations
They are always listening
At me they are always yelling
There just ain't no telling
What will set them off
The institution?
Or the illegal distribution?
Maybe the high costs of my tuition?
Or the constant friction
Between me and my family?
I don't want to say it
But your issues compared to mine are probably just a small fraction
In addition
I can't forget to mention
The tamper tantrums
That are materializing
In my mind
Always ruminating about my life
Picturing my future
While living in the past
Not caring about the present
Feeling like a damn peasant
In my own mind
It's exhausting
Feeling like this all the time
So trust me

You don't know what it's like to deal with this type of pressure
Only a selected few deal with this type of pressure
And only a few of those few actually survive this type of pressure
So don't say that you understand
Unless you are actually dealing with this type of pressure
At times it is just so unbearable
That you just want to end it
So please don't say that you understand it
Cuz I promise you
You don't know what it's like to constantly deal with this type of pressure 

This type of pressure is taking away all my motivation
I swear I'm loosing all my dedication
No, I don't want any medication
So that I can just have an addiction
I'd rather try some stupid meditation
It's really hard to pay attention
And get an education
When this type of pressure is always a distraction
Always in action
Always an interruption
Can I make a prediction?
This type of pressure will eventually put me out of commission
It's bringing me close to extinction
This type of pressure is putting me out of admission
I'm running out of patience
Just hand me over that ibuprofen
So I can release the tension
And get rid of this type of pressure

You don't know what it's like to deal with this type of pressure
Only a selected few deal with this type of pressure
And only a few of those few actually survive this type of pressure
So don't say that you understand
Unless you are actually dealing with this type of pressure
At times it is just so unbearable
That you just want to end it
So please don't say that you understand it
Cuz I promise you
You don't know what it's like to constantly deal with this type of pressure 

I already said these thoughts are the main source of my aggression
Please, please don't teach me a lesson
About no fucking therapy session
Can't you see the connection
These thoughts are worse than detention, 24/7
Don't need a prescription
Even tho there's always a rising tension
Rather be rewriting how my life story was written
These thoughts just don't fit in
With how I envisioned
With how I imagined
Didn't picture being suicidal so
Just need to make a correction
And erase all of this depression