I'm Stuck Here

Darkness was all I saw
I didn't know where I was
It felt like a knife
Was going through my chest
Which I've tried before
I was scared for life
Didn't know what to do
I called for you
But you didn't answer
I was just there lying
I thought I was dying
You wouldn't care tho
I just want to go
But I can't
I'm stuck here
Trap with all these voices inside my mind
They're there all the time
Lately it feels like I'm drowning
The words of people are pounding
Through my head
Is this connected to this unpleasant feeling
That I have been dealing with?

I've put this fake smile on for way to long
I laugh along
With everyone
But know one notices
That I ain't okay
I put this fake smile on everyday
No one gives a fuck about me anyways
No one cares for me
I'm used to it though, I say
So it's okay
Don't worry bout me
I want to run away
From the fear inside my head
I just wanna be dead
Put a bullet through my head
But suicides not an option anymore
I just want to lie there on the floor
Blood quickly flowing out of my body
Staining the carpet that is found beneath me
But I can't
I'm stuck here
Trapped with all of these voices inside my head
With all this misery
I'm starting to get dizzy
Is someone there to save me?

I can't seem to escape the fear
Wherever I go
The fear is right there with me
Can't loose it
But I'm used to it
Don't worry bout me
Dark thoughts travelling through my head
Want to harm myself
Just wanna be dead
Just want my life to be different
I wanna leave this place behind
But I can't
I'm forever stuck here