I LOVE YOU SO I HAVE TO LEAVE…RIGHT?

Imagine falling In love…

That exotic yet ecstatic feeling of loving someone so much you feel like you don’t deserve them…

and so you make a decision not because you hate them but because you’re scared…

of how deeply in love you are,

of disappointing them,

of not deserving their love,

and so you leave…

but then you see them again

and they are with someone else

It hurts…

but it’s your fault so you gotta look away

but damn it hurts…

Why did you take care of me?

Why love me even though I left?

Why care for me?

If I come back will you forgive me?

I’m selfish I know

I can’t say I love you and then leave you

I’m fighting battles constantly within and it just feels unfair to pull you into my mess.

I love you, and that is why I can’t make you suffer with me

I was bound to mess up anyways…