It's You Not Me

I used to cut myself

You asked me to stop

Said it hurt you

Because it hurt me

Guess you don't know

You're the reason I took it up

Your words cut deeper than any knife

My marks are the physical manifestations 

Of the wounds you gave me

And somehow my work hurts less

Just had to numb the pain

With more pain that I control

It was either this or go

Slipping away to someplace 

Where I can't feel a thing

Looking down at myself

Wondering why do I do these things

But it scares me

Yea I scare myself 

With the thought that I might never come back

I would stay away forever 

You'd never pierce me again 

Feeling empty forever 

I think I can handle that

But when the silence 

Frightens me more

Than all of your rage

I know it's time

To return to earth 

And be here in this body

It'll get better

Everybody tells me

Just give them a chance

You'll see them change

But tell me, why should I

Just hand you a knife of forgiveness 

So I can turn to smile at trust

While you stab me in the back

Promises are bullets

Apologies are empty sounds

Coming from your lying lips

You can drop the act 

It's all been done before

I'm familiar with this plot

It's the one where I lose

How are you so blind

How can you not see

I didn't harm myself 

You fucking cut me

Yet I am the one with the problem 

Explain why I need some help

Just cause your shitty parenting is showing

Doesn't mean you should take it out on me

So the next time a new scar appears 

Don't roll your eyes and say she's at it again

Look in my eyes and ask me why

Because I'd love to enlighten you