Killed Myself

Jace

I'm honestly done with this shit
I'm tired of all this
Think I'm going to end it right here, right now
Nothing will change my mind
This thought has just been on replay, rewind
Just gotta go through with it
So this is it
Give me the gun
So I can just run
Run away from all my problems
Give me the pills
So I can just kill
My inner demons
Give me the knife
So that I don't have to live my life
Don't want to live this life anymore
Whatever it takes
I'm about to kill myself
My body hanging from the noose
That is holding me by my shelf
I don't really care if you think this is selfish
You want to know what is really selfish?
You wanting me to live for everyone else
Everyone else who doesn't even give a fuck
About me, that's just my luck
I've lived in pain for way to long
And no one ever realized that something was wrong
So what's the point of living anymore?
When I've already lost the war
So I'm just going to kill myself
Which ever way I can


Damn look, I actually went through with it
I finally killed myself
After two already failed attempts
I finally got it right
Killed myself tonight
Looks like third times the charm
These voices can no longer bring me any harm
Cause as well as killing me
I also killed my inner demons
The demons who tortured me
The ones who made me feel like a burden
The ones who blurred my vision
Could no longer see
The opportunities
That were right in front of me
They were hidden by my insecurities
So I decided it would be better if I just went and killed myself


Tell my family and friends that I am sorry
That they don't need to worry
About me
Now I'm in a better place
Here I don't feel like a god damn disgrace
Here I don't mind what my face
Looks like
I just had to walk into that light
Now that I am gone I don't want a big funeral
I want to see everyone celebrate all night
Celebrate my short life
I wasn't even 20
I was far from it
But I know that I took the right route
Do not be sad about
Me, cause you didn't figure it out
Please
I just needed to free my inner demons
Before they took control of me
Now that I killed myself
I feel free
Don't have the constant urge to worry
But I am truly sorry
Don't let my death cause any pain in your life
That's not what I wanted
Just needed to end it
Now I'm in the afterlife
Living my best life
Free from the voices
Free from the demons
I think this was the best choice
It was my choice
My choice to kill myself

  • Author: Jace (Offline Offline)
  • Published: February 2nd, 2024 15:24
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 9
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  • JuneM

    Amazing and very powerful poem, I relate to you and I hate it when people give me a bunch of sympathy saying I'm sorry, so i won't do that with you, I'll just say I hope things get better so you don't feel that way anymore. Don't drown in the darkness if there's still light

    • Jace

      Thank you for your kind words!

      • JuneM

        Anytime friend

      • Lorenz

        All you need is a voice that says you're valuable ! let words be your weapon !

        • Jace

          Your words mean a lot to me

        • NinjaGirl

          Hang in there ♡ tomorrow needs you youre here for a reason
          -fellow attempter

          • Jace

            You hang in there too, thank you for taking your time to read my poem!



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