When Will I Be There?

I got touched by god

It was so good…the feeling stayed with me for a while but I never wanted it to end

But my humanness was tying me down

Things were still hard, still as I had left them before

And I wondered if I was missing something

Because if I felt god, felt him so deeply, why was it still hard on this end?

Is this what hell is? To know the magnificence of god

And not be able to connect fully with all of you, thus making you feel left out in the cold?