What is wrong with Life I wonder

What is wrong with life I wonder

For all we do is thrive before getting pulled down under

Or at least I do

And I know that there is no life without pain

But how much pain, how much sacrifice until we lose

Until we are deemed insane

How much more until we are utterly consumed

From the sacrifices of living

Tell me, do the seraphims deal with this cycle that blooms

Every time it feels like we're winning

Please, tell me,

Is there even a god above all the sinning

Because it feels like ever since I've truly lived my life

There is nothing but darkness and loss in my sight

Nations starting a second civil war

Poor peoples needs that we choose to ignore

The one seed that blooms into a flower

Wilts and dies within the same hour

Until I scream and cower, "Please, no more!"

Not knowing what else life has in store

Not hearing the Ravens crow

Synonymous with the pain, singing, "Nevermore"

And make no mistake, I know the difference between fantasy

And reality

Know the ruse behind fake nepenthe's

Know the hurt a mother feels every late night

As she comes home alone from work, to make sure her child's alright

But why have to carry that within your broken heart

Why tend to the fire, when its already caught

Why fight a losing war thats already been fought

So what is wrong with life, I wonder

That it continues to tear everything asunder

Something has been wrong since Wise Men carried myrrh

'Nascent murimur' -

"As we are born we die"

A phrase that perfectly describes the chaos inside

A chaos that we lie

Trying to cover it all up with a pretty smile

Thinking its all worth-while

When we're really just breaking ourselves

Every time we pretend to be someone else

But at some point the hot inferno gets cold

At some point, you won't be able to feel anymore

Thats what you call death

And what I think about at every breath

Waiting 'till it claims me

Waiting to finally be free

To finally be at peace

To hear the whisper of the dark, bland waves

Lapping over the Plutonian shore

To silence the voices that scream and quake-

And shake me to the core

Forevermore.