Stagnant water

A reticent room

Silence which only followed me relentlessly

Sprinkles of dusts seeking refuge in corners of my mind

Covering old feelings that once shone so bright it seemed as if haephastus's forge was roaring in a blaze

Books filled with knowledge yet gave no definitive answer

The humour of it simply paraded through my consciousness

So loud

The quietness that haunted me was exorcised away in hushed tones ever so subtly .

 

I was walking in circles

Drawing ouroboros with the footprints left behind in the wake of my search

Devouring myself to feel whole again

Enchanted by the lies that rocked me to sleep

Wrapped in the vile warm blankets of illusion that gave me comfort during despair

Pillows that have witnessed the decay of youth and the nourishment of change

The silent droplets of rain that soiled my face

drowning in hopelessness

My bed was a time capsule

My life being etched into its very fiber of existence

 

The more I explored the room

I was greeted with emotions bound down by coiled chains

It was all so beautiful

Turning around to leave I relapsed into old behaviours

Sharing a passionate kiss the very feelings that I resented and enslaved

Leaving was no option

Moving ahead was no option

I'm not stuck in the past nor am I lost in the vast expanse of my future

I'm simply in a melancholic dream

 

Sleeping was taste of heaven yet nothing short of a sentence in hell

Gods which didn't exist to me ,

Spoke , their voice dripping with ambrosia and honey

I've become a celestial body

My dreams gave rise to God's and were littered with plethora of hypocrisy

 

Woken by a icy cold breeze

My eyes were greeted with darkness

Yet miniscule globules of light dashed intensely, puncturing the darkness which clouded my eyes

I saw a room

I heard my myself speak

The phantoms which tailed me relentlessly have fallen asleep