If you were here

If you were in my shoes how would you resolve this problem

Every single day I’m like: oh girl of wits, bestow upon me your greatest bliss and allow this sinner and dim person to enjoy his life throughout the journey towards his targets.

Girl! Please, forgive me and give me a fair shake. Shifting my name into “Care” hasn’t changed anything at all.

I guess I need you here to assist me in this dire straits; intelligent, shrewd, talented, endearing, shortish, exactly the soul I’ve been looking for, the girl after my own heart, my kindred spirit.

If your were here with me, how would you react in front of this vicious circle I wrestle with? 

I yell every time I find myself lost in this world’s unfairness; tears never cease rolling down my cheeks as I face up to the fact that you are not mine and I’m weaker than you in every field of apprenticeship.

So far I’ve been looking at your back getting farther away enviously. 
All I can do now is swallowing this bitter pill and move on, I fell head over heels in love with you.

Crimson stains on both our stories, I shouted “please, don’t leave me” 4 years ago and today that memory remains in mind, a bittersweet backtracking. 

From the bottom of my heart, the very depth of my feeling, thank you for being a real human being, thank you so much