You

You ruined love for me, 

Because you made me feel like I could finally have everything that I dreamed it could be.

You found me when I was in the darkest place,

And you were the first one who was able to bring a smile back to my face.

But just like you brought my smile back, you also had the chance to take it away,

And now I find myself trying to pick up the pieces everyday.

You made me believe in love when I had forgotten what it was,

And I was so happy that you were the cause.

Because for so long I had given up, and you gave me exactly what I wanted,

And now I am just left with the memories that make me feel haunted.

You became more than a friend to me, you became my everything,

And being able to see you everyday let my heart sing.

I was so happy because everything felt so real,

And it was something that I didn’t know I still had in me to feel.

And I was convinced that you felt the same,

But I guess to you it was all just a game.

Because I wanted something serious, but you just happened to love the chase,

And you had no desire for us to continue our relationship outside of work in the first place.

I should have known because when it ended, I never heard from you again,

But I so badly wanted to be your friend.

You are the reason that I have trouble trusting anyone,

Because you enjoy playing with people's heads just for fun.

I still do have one question, if we were really friends, why did you feel the need to lie?

I guess I gave you too much credit, saying you were such a good guy.

You can’t tell me that you don’t care about me in some way,

Because there were so many words that you were too scared to say.

If you love her, why are you so worried about protecting me?

Is it because you finally see all of the things that we could be?

Because you know that no one will ever love you the way that I did,

And all of the feelings are coming out that you tried so hard to keep hid. 

I don’t know what is with you, but you know that you were the one who caused this mess,

And now you are going to have to spend the rest of your time trying to convince yourself that 

you did not make a mistake by saying yes.