What was I thinking when I entered here
Everything seemed so far and so near
I was scared, overwhelmed, and had so much fear
I have God, a Great Family, and Friends who are so dear
I came into something where I had no idea what to do
You ask yourself: what, when, where, why, how, and who
You feel a sense of guilt and being trapped, too
And; in life, you realize how much the journey is true
I sought out for myself a time of recovery and to heal
After several years, I would learn that I had restricted a meal or two (and I was very good at this) during the course of day
In my mind, I always thought that I could make the ultimate and the right choices for myself
But, as time went on; my health and my body would pay
As the days would go by; I would learn to love my body on the inside and outside, as well as my mind
You realize there will be days where you are ahead and some where you are behind
I learned how to love myself (a work in progress) for me and how to heal
And; God, allowed me to learn, to cope, to deal; but, most of all to heal
Thank You; God, for loving me and accepting me for me!!!
Written By: Julie A. Williams
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- Comment from author about the poem: This was a poem that I wrote back in 2015. It's a poem that means a great deal to me. I wrote it during a difficult time in my life. For several years prior to writing this poem, I was having a lot of dental issues and as a result of those issues I lost all of my teeth and I had dentures when I was in my 40's. That was a time where I really felt town on myself and had a lot of self-doubt and not knowing what my purpose was here on this earth. During that time, I rarely smiled, because I have a "very low self-esteem" and didn't want to be around people. It wasn't until 2012 that I got dentures; and that did help me from an eating standpoint. Because of all the oral health issues that I had, my health was in pretty shape and my weight and self-image had really hit rock bottom. In August of 2015, I voluntarily checked myself into an In-Patient Center for Eating Disorders because my weight was lower than it should have been. It took me two months to get my weight back up to my goal weight; and, I was finally at a good point in my life where I could be discharged. That whole experience was one I will never forget. The help that I got there at the Center for Eating Disorders was the best help that I could have gotten. The staff was great and they truly helped me in more ways than words can say. The biggest thing that I got out of that experience was that if you put in the work it will strengthen you and give you back your life...Live you Life....there are so many people counting on you; but, most of all God is counting on you.
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As someone who struggles with an eating disorder, I am incredibly proud of you for your self awareness, effort, and recovery. Keep fighting and please, keep writing
Hi Kinsey,
Thank you so very much for your kind and encouraging words. It means a lot. If you ever want to talk about our commonality about eating disorders; please let me know. Always feel and be encouraged in what you do. I have struggled with mine for over 15 years.
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