For The First Time In A While

I have to admit that there are times when you are still on my mind,

But unlike before, it is not like it is happening all of the time.

I found myself smiling yesterday, and it happened to be sincere,

And there was pure happiness, instead of there being tears.

I know that I feel good now, and it will come and go,

But even when that happens, I refuse to let it show.

That there will be times when you control how I feel,

But that is going to happen when you are trying to heal.

Because letting go of your past is no simple task,

And when those harsh feelings come back, I need to remind myself that they are not going to 

last.

That just like everything else, time will help heal it all,

Even when it is hard to pick yourself up when you fall.

But you know that you can’t stay there forever,

And that when it comes down to it, you can never say never.

Because even though it seems like it is all ending now, eventually it will have to end,

And you will be able to pick yourself up and try again.

And even though it seems like it is over now, you know that that is not true,

Because you have been here before and you were able to make it through.

And there will be ups and downs, but one day you will be able to look back and smile,

And you can bounce back from anything, even though you were stuck there for a while.

And when you come out on the other side, it will be the most amazing feeling that you could 

have had,

And you will be filled with happiness, and you will no longer feel sad or mad.

Because even though you didn’t understand it at the time, this was part of your story and it 

needed to occur,

And even though you wanted it, you realize that you no longer want things to go back to the way 

that they were.