We Will Never Be Friends Again

It hurts me to say, but I know that this is the end,

Because after everything that happened, we can never be friends again.

I have to admit to myself, that I will always love you,

And at the end of the day, there is nothing else for me to do.

Because if we were to ever reconnect again, it would never be the same,

Because I know deep down that my heart will flutter whenever I hear your name.

I could look at you and smile, while a piece of me is breaking,

And throughout our friendship, I would always have to be faking.

As if I have moved on, and my feelings for you were no more,

But I know that I will never be able to shut that door.

Because even after all you put me through, I still hope for you to come through,

And finally realize that the love we have for each other is true.

And to admit that you messed up, and that it should have been me,

And that the love was always there, but you were to blind to see.

That because I loved you so much you just decided to keep pushing it aside,

Because the love I had for you was something that I never wanted to hide.

But to you, it did not matter from the start,

Because you wanted to play games with my heart.

And despite it all, I still wish I could turn back time, 

Because a friendship like ours was hard to find.

And never admit to you how you made me feel,

And just pretend like none of it was real.

Because then we could still be together, and none of it would have changed,

And none of this would have left either of us feeling strange.

And if you had told me the truth months ago, it would have been easier to play pretend,

Because I would have known that me and you were hanging out only as friends.

And I would have been able to move on eventually, and everything would be okay,

And it wouldn’t have taken me so long to piece myself back together all of those days.

And maybe in the end, if I was patient, something  could have happened between us in the end,

Because I still would have been able to see you, because you would end up being only a friend.