I'M SORRY...I'M REALLY SORRY

I'm sorry...Of course, you are. It's funny how easily "sorry" comes out. I'm supposed to forget all you did cause you're "sorry." I've struggled so much with forgiving, but I also tend to forget that I, too, need to be forgiven. Living with the thought that maybe, just maybe, there is someone out there who I hurt so badly, but I can't even say sorry to them cause I don't know who they are or what I did...it's HARD! Just like that, I became one of them...one of the people who say "sorry"...like it's gonna fix anything. As a Christian, I've struggled with forgiving partially because when I see myself and how constantly I repeat the same sin, it makes zero sense to me why God would forgive me. It feels so lovely when you have been forgiven...But I wonder how many times will I be sorry? Will God forget? Will the people that I unintentionally hurt forget and find it in their hearts to forgive me? I pray that I never make anyone remember me for the hurt I caused them. I'm sorry...I'm really sorry!