biggest regrt

i'm 25 getting engaged
i have everything i ever wished for
happy job,loyal friends,loving family
and now a man who loves me like i love(d) you
i couldn't ask anything more

now and then
u consume my thoughts
everytime when 
i see 
a calm boy with cold look,
when 
i'm cooking ur fav dish
when 
people talk about
ur fav things
which later became mine
when 
one-side lovers defend themselves 
saying their crushes are introverts
but not realizing that they 
might not be interested

i always had a feeling that 
u r gonna b my biggest heart break
but i never wanted it to be real
i believed u r going to own my heart 
till it stops beating
l know it's too late to realize that
it's all in my head
maybe i should have confessed 
maybe u should have known
maybe we should never have been this close