self-sabotage

NinjaGirl


Notice of absence from NinjaGirl
Hi everyone! I have been gone for a while, I don’t know if any of you all have noticed, but I apologize for not leaving a notice anyway. I will be gone for a while. I am not done writing poetry, and I have not given up. But I will be away for some time. I expect to return around 2028. Not sure if any of you guys will see this, but thank you for reading my poetry. Please do not worry, I will be okay! I look forward to returning!

Ruin everything on purpose

Destroy it all

I don't even realize

Until I have no friends

I knew they would leave

I knew they couldn't handle me

I knew it I knew it I knew it!

See how much they can deal with

Prove to myself I'm nothing as before

That I can't be loved

Push every boundary 

Because my own were ignored.

  • Author: NinjaGirl (Offline Offline)
  • Published: March 23rd, 2024 12:26
  • Comment from author about the poem: I got triggered this week. It was partially my own fault, I chose to study the Rape of Berlin for AP Euro. I figured if I studied it on my own, I could have all the problems that happen when I get triggered at home, rather than at school. Less of a social embarrassment. Unfortunately I think it was too much. I ended up self-sabotaging by talking about my period in great detail to my friends, which I was on. I continued even though they said to stop. And now I deleted and blocked the whole group chat. It's frustrating.
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