Faithfulness

What is the meaning of mere life? 
It is ignorant to ignore this pain and sorrow 
I had enough of this cruel world, where is a knife?
Today’s issues are on my mind, I am dreading tomorrow 

Another day, another night of suffering and pain 
I injure my darkest thoughts, emotions that I wish to die 
Just surviving throughout darkness, there is nothing to gain 
Faithfulness and belief in god are a one huge lie

I don’t want tomorrow’s agony to slowly come 
In this pure suffering and pain, I’m willing to not exist
I want to be dead, on the pathetic earth that I come from 
I want to just slit my wrists 

A knife in my hand, dark emotions are in my head
I don’t care, my soul is shattered and broken 
I will take my life, to be content being dead 
Being deceased is what I have chosen