Dear God

I am writing you today because no matter what I do or think or pray, I am so confused! Only you know my whole story, my every move in every way. I try to be sure to pray everyday and talk to you in all I do. Almost 4 years ago now I thought I had the perfect family life. Although I was unhappy most of the time, I thought I was doing what was right. For the longest time I held so much resentment against my childhood. Realizing now even through all the pain there was so much I gained. Many happy memories, an amazing BIG family who loved me. I got to see the world in different views. I experienced many cultural views and backgrounds. Even through detention centers, hospital wards, rehab facilities, I was blessed to meet some amazing people. The world was not all bad. Then I grew up, and life turned upside down. I made a perfectly fake trophy wife. Until I could not bear the rage built up inside. The fake American dream became a nightmare I could not wake from. What is America? Who is really living in the land of the free.. <3 Me 

ALK