Starting Over

After years of allowing you to take up all of  my thoughts and all of my time,

I am finally able to let it go and take back control of what is mine.

For the past five years, I have not been able to be me,

And it took me a long time to finally be able to see.

That it was all because of you and what you put me through,

Because I was constantly thinking of you and everything that you would do.

I wasn’t living for myself, because I was so concerned with being enough for you,

And I thought I wasn’t good enough, but I finally realized that that is not true.

This whole time I was enough, but I was too blind to see,

That someone who really loved me would just allow me to be me.

But today I am allowing myself to take back my control and my power,

Because I am no longer waiting for a prince to come and save me from my tower.

As much as I want love, I see why it is not happening for me right now,

And I am no longer concerned with trying to figure out when or how.

From here on out, I am only focusing on me and my goals,

And I am concerned with fixing my heart and my soul.

Because after you left, you took a few pieces from my that I want to get back,

And I can’t find love if there are still so many things that I lack.

Because from the moment I met you, you were all that I was concerned with,

And thinking that there was something between us was me feeding into a myth.

And even though there are days when I know things will get rough,

I need to remind myself that I can do it and that I am tough.

And in order to achieve my goals, I need to move forward and let go of the past,

Because I am the only one who will always be there for me, while love may come and go, and 

won’t necessarily last. 

You broke me, and for too long I was giving you exactly what you wanted,

But the ghosts and the memories will no longer leave me haunted.

I am no longer going to give you the satisfaction of playing your game,

And I am going to make sure that you remember my name.

Because this time it is my turn to show you what you what you missed out on,

And by the time you come back, I will be long gone.