Dear little old me, I'm quite jealous of you
Not because you were bright and unaware,
But cause you don’t happen anymore.
They say it gets better, but does it?
You must not know what anxiety is.
I think of bed rotting and ordering breakfast,
Yeah I wanna watch tv in silence,
No I don’t want to go out I prefer naps in his laps now.
The only thing we share now is this annoying smile
That’s the only thing that keeps me alive.
I lost your wonder, I lost your charm I surely lost all of you little girl,
but not those curls (we still hate them yes)
You'd be horrified when you listen to these thoughts,
these ridiculous ideas they call them suicidal and what not.
You remind me of my sunshine, my past and my innocence.
I'm not ready to face those adult consequence.
I’ll say I miss you and I'm sorry,
Don’t know if I mean it but I'll be proud of your story.
You're lost and gone, never really returning,
That makes me feel relieved cause you'll be wondering.
I'm happy you existed but that’s just not me,
Wondering what my future feel about this.
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Author:
mirrorball (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Something I wrote few days ago when i was seeing my childhood photos, a nostalgia hit me hard and kept me wondering what this little girl would think of me now.
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Comments4
Brave...
thankyouu!!
My dear Mirrorball, I remember being 18 not so long ago in 1996 and it was the most fabulous time of my life, i like your writing it's like a journal. Ups and downs that's what you will have, and remember that every happy moment leads you somewhere, those darker moments also lead you somewhere. Trust that where ever they lead you will be to a bright and warm place, even when it doesn't quite feel that way at the time 🌹
thankyou so much teddy! this feels so heartwarming to read. im quite stuck in a loop of being a disappointment but I'm also trusting the process! I'm glad u like my journal writing style. this means alot thankyou!!
Beautiful write. Mirror.❤️😊
thankyou mason 🙂
Love this girl1
thankyou lil
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