I wanna

I sit in bed now and I am not crying like I use to do
I sit there and wonder what we were and what we can do
I torture myself with thoughts of ¨ Oh maybe he is cheating¨
All I do is shut my friends out because they cant support me and you
They dont know that I wanna hold your hand
I wanna have little nicknames
And I wanna to cry in your arms
I wanna have people see we are in love
Others ship me with every boy in school
The only one that feels right is you
I wanna have my arm around your waist
And hold you close because your the only person
The only one that doesn´t trigger anxiety, trauma
All that shit
But I just wanna hold your hand and tell you
We are okay