I wanna

I sit in bed now and I am not crying like I use to do
I sit there and wonder what we were and what we can do
I torture myself with thoughts of ¨ Oh maybe he is cheating¨
All I do is shut my friends out because they cant support me and you
They dont know that I wanna hold your hand
I wanna have little nicknames
And I wanna to cry in your arms
I wanna have people see we are in love
Others ship me with every boy in school
The only one that feels right is you
I wanna have my arm around your waist
And hold you close because your the only person
The only one that doesn´t trigger anxiety, trauma
All that shit
But I just wanna hold your hand and tell you
We are okay

Because we are,
Me and you.
Together,
In which we both hope, forever.
To hold your hand,
The feeling i get,
Who do I think of at night?
You were the missing puzzle Peice,
To my life.

Without you I felt this emptiness
Like I didn't have a place in the world
You worry about P.D.A at school
When I just wanna reach over and touch your shoulder
Hold your hand
Because when I look at you I see someone perfect
I see you for you not who others want you to be
I wanna feel your touch
I wanna know your okay
I just wanna fucking love you
Without you being worried, scared or concerned about me
Or the teachers, or the kids
You say we can wait till summer
Man that s too long
You're worried about stupid but reasonable shit